Monday, September 19, 2011

It's not always easy

Are there ever mornings when you roll out of bed and gaze at your reflection in the mirror wondering, "What am I doing?" "Who the heck do I think I am to be such a dreamer?" I do! 

And I'm ashamed to admit a great deal more often than I wish I did.  When these moods arise I often find myself questioning my my ability, my skill level, and this entire crazy ambition and dream of mine to be a writer the world finds worth reading, especially with the high degree of standards set by so many of my predecessors.

And even though I pride myself on being one of those the-glass-is-half-full sorts of people, as my previous blogs can so accurately attest to.  I still fight the insecurities and uncertainties on a pretty daily basis (even on a good day) on whether or not I have something worth sharing with the rest of the world...anything worth saying to all of you.

So in cases such as this, I always find blog hopping to be a helpful and enjoyable way to steer myself back on track.  Since not only are there some really great blogs out there, but there are simply so many writers and real people out there who are willing to open up and share their experiences and journeys with others.  And I always find it to be a source of comfort and encouragement to discover time after time that I am not alone in this sometimes lonely and isolated road of being a writer, and neither are you.  There are people, the same as you and me, who experience the woes and worries of life, whether its about their art, their career or some other important goal in their life. Some of the world's GREATS have openly admitted that the road to triumph wasn't always paved with gold and unimaginable success. And just as I sit hear wondering and questioning the sanity of my dreams, they too sat before their notepad or computer screen, staring at that taunting blinking cursor wondering if maybe they didn't have what it takes.

But it never fails when I allow these self-diminishing thoughts to plant themselves and they undoubtedly start to fester that I immediately turn to my sure fire pick-me up. I pull out my PUMP-ME-UP music, sit myself down with a new book, and simply allow myself to get lost in a story. Any story, since funny enough it doesn't even matter if the story is good or bad, because if its a good or even great story I feel more inspired to push myself even harder to be even better.  And if it's an awful story than I feel compelled to prove to the world that I can simply do better.  Maybe its the competitive nature I've always lived with, but it never fails to remind me why it is that I do what I do and why I love writing and storytelling so much.

Now there's never really a rhyme or reason to the rising of doubts and uncertainties I experience, or the perpetual roller coaster of highs and or lows that I find myself going through.  So I've come to the conclusion that it's just one of those things that's part of my nature, something that's part of the human condition.  After all I do have the dreamer's disease and like any other condition, there will be side effects.

So what are some things that you do to help pull you out of your funk or depression?

And being that I love sharing with all of you, I thought I'd share one of the songs that always helps to lift my spirits when I'm feeling down in the dumps.  Enjoy!

New Radicals - "You Get What You Give"

Happy Writing & Happy Reading!


  1. Hang in there Blaire, don't ever, ever give up. Persistence is everything in this field. You should see the stack of rejection letters that I have for my upcoming debut. It's a mile high and about four years long...and that's the second novel. The first novel, forget it...a hundred rejection letters at least. But all it took was one person to say YES to my second novel.

    Your YES will come, it will. XO/YA Colleen

  2. Thank you for sharing & the words of encouragement Colleen! I really really appreciate it. And YES! I will continue to keep fighting the good fight. *jabs at empty air* ;D

  3. Oh do I know how this feels. And I find myself doing the same thing that you do -- blog hopping. It's refreshing to read that it's this way for most writers. It doesn't make it much easier, but at least we know it's normal and it can be overcome! Keep at it & best of luck to you!

  4. I'd say reading posts like this helps me to pull out of funks.
    I love to read you writers--you articulate what many of us visual artists either can't or are unwilling to say about our struggles. Sounds to me like you have a good process, and the passion!
    As for me... I spend a lot of time circling my "zone" like it's a dark pool of chilly water that I know I have to jump in to in order to survive. Once I'm in? Sublime. Fear, and the The Great Time Waster are always by my side, holding me back and poking me to do other things. Sigh. As Colleen said, "hang in there!" It will help the rest of us to do so, too :)

  5. Thank you ALL for your comments & feedback. It definitely helps with the old MOJO! ;)